Ken Arkind - “David” (CUPSI 2014)
"Not a day goes by without people leaving messages, poems or pictures on his wall the way one would leave flowers at a gravesite. I often find myself sending messages to his inbox, prayers meant only for his ears, things I never expect to be answered."
Performing during the Penmanship Books showcase at the 2014 College Unions Poetry Slam Invitational.
To you, you are not my brother’s son,
To me, you do not have to be,
We have addressed you as family, we have taken you under our wing you do not need to be blood to be one of ours, you need to prove nothing to us, you are one of us as long as you want to be and not a second longer, you get confused when your mom tells you not to call Jake dad, but I will be your uncle, I will strive to be a role model, there is nothing about me that is perfect and I will let you down. I’m just a kid as well still, yet you look up to me how the moon looks up to the sun, just trying to light the world half as much when it is at its fullest, but let me tell you this. You gave my miserable wandering a purpose. Do not think that you have to change for us. Stay young. This world will force you to grow up more quickly than you should. But I promise you this, should you ever need it, I will stand in front of the closet as you peek behind and wait for the monsters to come. And when you grow up and start to realize that those same monsters are the ones that are in your head, I will wait in the driveway with a basketball just so I can sit and listen to you release them. I am not perfect, I am not wise, I am not the bright eyed, intelligent go-getter of a son my parents had hoped for, what I am, is your uncle.
Rudy Francisco - “Complainers” (NPS 2014)
"It doesn’t matter if the glass is half full or half empty, drink that shit and stop complaining."
Performing for San Diego during semifinals at the 2014 National Poetry Slam.
You’d get lost in the corridors of every building until the walls wear down and darkness sets in. I’d be glad to let you explore, but just be ready to never make your way back, because once you start, chances are you’ll lose yourself. Then again maybe that’s the beauty of it. To be so fully involved in each others minds that we no longer can comprehend what it means to be separate.
I laminated a paper towel
why does this have 31 thousand notes
You made it useless but also prevented it from the end it was predestined for.
But wait this is actually freaking me out though, it raises so many questions about the otherwise incomprehensible meaning of life as a collective whole versus personal sustenance and longevity
Imagine if one day you were given a choice: Become immortal and indestructible for eternity, unable to be harmed by anything ever again, and get to live forever.
However, in order to achieve that you must give up whatever your purpose in life is. Whatever it is that you were always meant to do, what you were supposed to contribute to the overall scheme and future of the life of the universe, your purpose… the whole reason you were even created, even born in the first place. You must give that up. You don’t know what that is. You’ll never know; But, regardless, you say yes.
Perhaps you assume you wouldn’t have made any sort of significant difference anyway. That butterfly effect theory or whatever they call it? Nah, you call bullshit. It doesn’t matter - you don’t matter, at least not to anything outside of your immediate connections - and it’ll all be fine, and you’ll just live forever with minimal (or maybe even no) consequences.
So, yay! You’re now immortal. You’ll never die or get hurt ever again. Wee!
But then, centuries and centuries later (not to mention that by this point you’ve gone through horrible heartbreak and misery and despair because every loved one you ever had, every friend you ever made, ever person you barely got to know, has passed away, died as you lived on long without them, helpless to do anything for them as you watched them perish, unable to ever go with them or ever see them again. But I digress), now, you learn you actually were important in the grand scheme of things. You were supposed to be a key factor in the world’s survival, long ago; but, because of the choice you made (immortality over individual purpose), you were never given the knowledge or awareness or resources or ability to save the world that you were always supposed to obtain, before you unknowingly made the wrongest choice to ever wrong.
Needless to say, you’ve fucked up big time.
The entire universe as we know it is destroyed soon after this horrifying revelation. It implodes, collapses in on itself, essentially forming a massive black hole or something. Stars, nebulae, galaxies, solar systems and planets, worlds and worlds of living people and things, and light-years of time and space and life, all sucked up into absolute, indefinite nothingness.
But you remain.
Just you. Floating amongst, spiraling around, rocketing through, suspended in… nothing. With a feeling of such unbelievable loneliness that your feeble brain can hardly perceive, can’t possibly hope to comprehend. Not only are you the only living thing left, you don’t even have one inanimate object to keep you company. You have literally. Nothing. And you are literally nowhere. I mean, technically, you are now the universe - if it would bring you petty comfort to think about it that way. You. Only you. With nothing, no one, nowhere. Forever. And ever. And ever.
All because you thought you didn’t matter. That you had no real, meaningful purpose. That you could never possibly make a difference.
But you did. And now look what you’ve gotten yourself into, you silly nugget. You’re gonna be pretty bored and lonely for that eternity, huh?
Or maybe it was out of selfishness. Maybe this wasn’t because you felt useless, but because you simply only cared about prolonging your own life and nothing else. Hm.
The moral here? Be selfless, and always know and remember that you matter.
Or else, one day, you might destroy the universe. And be left to suffer, and be tortured horribly and endlessly by the void of nothingness that has consumed you. With no way to escape. Ever.
Other moral because I got sidetracked from my initial point - all things considered, would you choose longevity over purpose? Immortality over meaning?
OR, IDK, MAYBE SOME IDIOT JUST LAMINATED A STUPID PIECE OF PAPER TOWEL FOR NO GOOD REASON
AND MAYBE I SHOULDNT BE LOOKING FOR THE ANSWERS TO THE MEANING OF OUR SHORT, FRAGILE LIVES IN
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